Heya,
That's great news that you're feeling calmer today. What makes you pass out? Not eating or something else? Maybe if you're lacking the energy you could maybe eat something small and then go out to buy stuff? Or even go on Amazon and get it delivered to your flat? Or someone else's?
Maybe your cc just didn't know how to deal with the Ed? My Old cpn used to not say anything about my ed and wouldn't really ask about it; maybe once or twice he asked about it but even when I mentioned it was really bad he didn't say much. I think it might be a guy thing in not knowing how to respond? But maybe you could speak to your cc about what can be done to help your ed? Are you with a Ed team? Are you getting treatment for your ed? What's the plans for your eating whilst your in hospital?
I thought and what I gather from your thread and also your r/v and texts that you wanted to be in hospital as you felt that this was the right way forward for you right now. If this is the case by you hiding the blades and using them would make your admission pointless. It's meant to be a safe place. I'm sure that if you handed them in the staff wouldn't be angry but glad you handed them in before using them again. It's obvious you want the help and your scared but you can do it. Make use of the staff that's why they are here. I'm sorry your bf said that! That's out of order. Have you told him how the comment hurt you?
Be safe Katie! X
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