The thing is, you DO have control over your behaviours, you are not psychotic, you know exactly what you're doing and what response you want to elicit, the problem there lies with either the person doesn't understand what you are trying to communicate or the staff know exactly what you're wanting but they don't think it's healthy for them to respond the way you are manipulating them in to. Read over all your posts from this account and your other one. See how you use your actions to manipulate people, to gain sympathy and attention, that sounds harsh and I don't mean it to at all, needing those things is okay but you need to learn to ask and talk rather than act out.
You can put a stop to all this, yes its so incredibly hard, you will feel misunderstood, but that is life. We all relate here, we're all here to support you but we can't stand by and support your unhealthy need for validation.you got what you wanted, you were sectioned, you are unwell, now you have to turn it around. Use mindfulness to help you think and not act impulsively. An urge is an urge, you have the control to not act on it. We can support you through those times if you reach out and ask for support in that way. People reacting after the event is just feeding in to this cycle you have going.
You know they won't let you dehydrate yourself to death, so really, what are you hoping to achieve? You need to take care of you. No one else can, it will be hard, but pick up that drink.
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