I think you're not wrong...*hugs* I'm going...Today...Mom’s gonna take me to the ER…I am one giant, walking panic attack, and it’s making me suicidal to the point that, like…I’m scared of myself…There’s something WRONG, like, REALLY wrong…I can’t stop shaking, and I’m barely holding it together…They’re gonna end up sedating me, and I dunno how long I’ll be out for, but I need this right now, I need to be safe…I am so much of a danger to myself, like…I can’t remember the last time it was this bad, and I can’t go back to the psych ward, I can’t, I just…I can’t…I can’t do this anymore…Mom is gonna have them write a script for Celexa. It’s an anti-depressant, she wants me on it now. I can’t wait untill I see the psych doctor, I need something now…And they’ll end up giving me, like, Dilaudid or something, and I just…I can’t do this anymore…I can’t be like this! I just…I don’t wanna live anymore…It’s not worth it, it’s just, it’s not…
I mean, I feel like it's not...I don't want this to be triggering for anyone else...I'm just...In that headspace right now...
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