Could you and Dave move closer to uni? Say halfway between where he wants to be based and campus. Remember everywhere has a CMHT, it'd take a bit of used to working with new people, but moving doesn't mean losing mental health support.
I think you are like me, it's probably eldest child syndrome. After my Dad left, my Mum leant very heavily on me for support. I was younger than you, so the sacrifices I made were different, but that almost reversal of parent-child roles was there. Every other weekend is a big improvement, so see how that impacts on your energy levels. Try and encourage your mum to seek other forms of support, such as counselling, without making her feel like you want to abandon her.
Some people, especially those on sedating medications just struggle to get up in the mornings, I'm one of them. I prepare things the night before so it only takes me twenty minutes between waking up and getting the bus to work. Lay out your clothes the night before. Have a breakfast you can just grab, breakfast biscuits or cereal bars are great for this as you can eat them whilst travelling too. Ultimately it doesn't matter if you are stumbling around like a zombie, so long as you can get out that door in time, you can wake up properly gradually on your public transport.
Don't get your hopes up about the blood test giving you a clear answer. Being tired all the time is a notoriously vague symptom that doesn't often have a clear cause. I'm also a bit confused as to how your doctor can be considering ME when you are on sedating medication, how can he rule out the tiredness being a side effect?
Don't just aim for uni next Wednesday, do it! Tell Dave I said he has to cook you a nice tea and get dessert in if you make it. I really think next weds is probably make or break, if you can't force yourself in when you are determined to go in, then you definitely can't force yourself in on an ordinary day when you have less motivation. However, if you make it, then it' say really positive start to getting properly back in to your degree. Personally, I think you'll do it, you have doubts,worries, challenges and hurdles, but it comes across that you really want this degree.
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