I think you've sort of sleepwalked into this Sarah and had you spotted it a bit earlier it would be easier to get out of. I can remember in a previous thread of yours I asked you how you would avoid the same situation happening again with uni, you said you didn't know.
With ME there is a treatment called graded activity where you gradually increase the amount you are doing, I think this is what you need to do, no matter what your diagnosis is. Draw up an agreement with your uni of a step by step return to lectures. Start by turning up for just one. Yes, you will be exhausted and it's not going to be pleasant, but sometimes in life you've just got to push on through the tiredness if the results are worthwhile. Of course, you might decide to drop out, but getting a job is going to be even more tiring and you're too intelligent to waste your life on the sick.
You also need to take a look at your lifestyle. Frankly, you live too far from uni. Anyone would be exhausted with that commute, let alone someone on sedating medication. You also go to your mum's home every weekend, which is even more travelling and means you don't get to relax whilst you have time off. If you want to get your degree, it might be better to move to where your uni is located. You might also want to think about how best to spend your weekends. It is fairly common for uni students to go six weeks or more without returning to their parents house. Again, you may decide that family and partner are more important than a degree, that's a perfectly legitimate decision that a lot of people take.
I've been pretty blunt with my opinions here but that's because I know what it's like, I used to have a mammoth commute to work so I could live with my partner in the town he wanted to live in. The exhaustion contributed to a major breakdown. Take care Sarah and have a good long think about what you want.
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