[Wolfir]

I feel almost like I'll two people. I sometimes hear voices in my head, feel a pain that just can't be real. I don't let myself be close to people and tell them because I'm afraid they'll think I'm a freak which is what I feel like sometimes. I've gone to one of my friends and asked him to cut me and beat me. I feel like I deserve to be treated like that. I want to be hit, broken, hurt, bleed. Something to make it stop. If it wouldn't bother people I love and my family so much I think I'd have killed myself by now. I just want this internal pain to stop.