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Hi there.

I don't tend to post in this area of RYL but I think this might be a more suitable place.

Last year in January I found out I was a month pregnant. After five months in May the scan showed the baby wasn't developing and we had to terminate the pregnancy. I gave birth in May and he was buried in June.

The advice I need is because I am now with a new partner and we want to try for a baby. Finding out I was pregnant made me realise one thing; I want a family.

My MH is stable and my physical health is improving and I'm under close watch with it.

However, I am terrified it will happen again. Obviously my partner didn't go through it last time and has never been through anything like this; in fact he has a child which was because of a one night stand so he thinks pregnancy is something easy and simple...but thinking about it scares me to the point I shake.

I want nothing more than a child and starting a family but this is something that really hurt me.

How do I move past this to look to the future? Am I jusy blowing it out of proportion and should just try anyway? Is it normal to still hurt from this?

Thanks, Katie

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