Sometimes it's easier to accept that things'll never get better because that takes the responsibility off ourselves to keep working at it. You sound as if you need a break from yourself, you'll never get away from your mental health problems WITHOUT tonnes of work both emotional and physical but you can stop fighting against yourself for now. Allow yourself to be mentally ill, within reason. You are not weak, you are simply coping as best you can with what you have now. Soon enough you'll feel a little bit of fight and resistance come back to you and you'll be able to pick yourself up again and start working to better yourself. But for now, I'd say allow yourself to feel hurt and even broken. It's okay to feel bad and tired sometimes. Please stay safe and please stay here.
Love Robyn
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