Thanks Lottie, it feels better just to hear from someone. I'm struggling so much physically and mentally to keep up. Today is probably the most I've eaten in a few days. I think my body just can't keep up sometimes. I hate the anxiety eating causes and it makes me feel more rage and frustration than I have words for to need anything, as much as I know how unsafe this is in reality. I hate that my friends are watching me to see what I eat; I hate that it doesn't matter enough for me not to hurt them. I am exhausted... I don't really know where to go with this- in real life I am vibrant, passionate about my job as a support worker and have a fairly wicked sense of humour, but inside this monster is eating me alive. I promissed my counsellor I would make another doctors appointment. I don't really want to, but I know I need to
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