I too have been writing journals since about 11-12, and I'm now 22.
I would say find some privacy. Don't let anyone interrupt you, and keep it close to you and away from prying eyes if you're concerned someone may break that trust.
Just write whatever you feel like. Don't think about it, just write, almost unconciously. It might be hard to think about, but even if you just start with writing about things that happened, then just letting yourself go with what you think or feel about those emotions.
Even if you can only express it in a scribble, or writing 4 words in big angry letters, anything.
It is a really good method of identifying emotions and situations that made you feel certain ways, and as well at containing those emotions whilst still expressing them - so instead o getting super upset and angry and hurting someone or yourself, you are still processing without causing any harm to yourself or others.
It doesn't matter if you don't 100% mean what you write, or if you fantasize about scenarios or doing things to people, it's fine. It's venting. Often I write hit lists and whatnot in my diary and fantasise about doing nasty things to people who have been nasty to me or someone I love - but I don't do it - else I'd be in prison a million times over by now, but it's fine. Just let it go.
Good luck. Hope it helps. xxx
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