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yoyogirl · 19-07-2013, 11:39 PM

No I do not want this diagnosis for attention, I just want to believed thats whats happened in the last 18 months has been due to mental health rather than attention seeking. I have had a **** a year and it seems to be getting worse every single, every single day i get rejected, i react badly, i take longer to get better from it and then something serious happens and then it repeats

this is what qualifies me for a dx
you have emotions that are up and down (for example, feeling confident one day and feeling despair another), with feelings of emptiness and often anger
I am either really happy or really miserable and depressed and often feel empty and life isn;t worth living anymore

you find it difficult to make and maintain relationships
I often find it hard to make friends due to low self esteem and I often cannot maintain them for long
you have an unstable sense of identity, such as thinking differently about yourself depending on who you are with
I am going on opposite sides of people of people for example ranting about someone and then saying to them how much I like them.
you take risks or do things without thinking about the consequences
I tried to jump out of my friend's car due to an argument I didn't plan it it was impulse, i then signed up for a course in education studies without worrying the concequences, i didn't think about the money I would need to pay for it and as result ended in debt. Please note I was also attacked in October 2011 when I first started the course so I wasn't in th right frame of mind.
you harm yourself or think about harming yourself (for example, cutting yourself or overdosing)
I have harmed myself and self poisoned myself various times and occassionally i thought about ending it
you fear being abandoned or rejected or being alone

I am always fearing that one day I am gonna lose all my friends in one hit and i often feel rejected and alone
iam currently in a relationship right now thats always on the rocks, we seem to be having more arguments on daily basis and its really affecting my self esteem

19-07-2013, 11:39 PM	#18
yoyogirl Join Date: Mar 2013 I am currently:	bpd No I do not want this diagnosis for attention, I just want to believed thats whats happened in the last 18 months has been due to mental health rather than attention seeking. I have had a **** a year and it seems to be getting worse every single, every single day i get rejected, i react badly, i take longer to get better from it and then something serious happens and then it repeats this is what qualifies me for a dx you have emotions that are up and down (for example, feeling confident one day and feeling despair another), with feelings of emptiness and often anger I am either really happy or really miserable and depressed and often feel empty and life isn;t worth living anymore you find it difficult to make and maintain relationships I often find it hard to make friends due to low self esteem and I often cannot maintain them for long you have an unstable sense of identity, such as thinking differently about yourself depending on who you are with I am going on opposite sides of people of people for example ranting about someone and then saying to them how much I like them. you take risks or do things without thinking about the consequences I tried to jump out of my friend's car due to an argument I didn't plan it it was impulse, i then signed up for a course in education studies without worrying the concequences, i didn't think about the money I would need to pay for it and as result ended in debt. Please note I was also attacked in October 2011 when I first started the course so I wasn't in th right frame of mind. you harm yourself or think about harming yourself (for example, cutting yourself or overdosing) I have harmed myself and self poisoned myself various times and occassionally i thought about ending it you fear being abandoned or rejected or being alone I am always fearing that one day I am gonna lose all my friends in one hit and i often feel rejected and alone iam currently in a relationship right now thats always on the rocks, we seem to be having more arguments on daily basis and its really affecting my self esteem
yoyogirl Join Date: Mar 2013 I am currently:	Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted. I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.