I had a mental health assessment on monday and they'e telling me the outcome next monday. It'll probably be a few months waiting list before I get seen. It's been 6 months already waiting. My life is just a waiting game and I'm fed up with being patient!
I have so many urges to damage myself or get high or get drunk off m head just to get away from the shit going on and I don't want to do it anymore. Every time I see a professional they ask me if I want to press charges. They ask about abuse and I can't talk about it! I can't tell them about what's bothering me because they're not specialists. They haven't dealt with people like me. How do I explain to people who don't understand and have no possibility of ever truly understanding it? How do i explain to people who don't feel completely vulnerable and uneasy in their own bodies?
I don't want to make it through today alive but I probably will and that sucks!
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