Oh love; I'm really sorry you feel like that. Getting to your 21st birthday is a huge achievement. It can be upsetting and also make you feel angry that you have come to this age however it's an achievement through how much and what you've been through. It shows your strength and success.
In away I've always also said I would be dead before my 20th birthday and should of succeed in my many times in my suicide attempt however I'm still here and will be 21 in October which frightens me but I also guess it shows that I can get through this patch I'm facing now and get through as I've been through so much and got out the other side.
It feels hard that we are in a way still 'suffering' but that won't always be the case. I hope you birthday will be a good day or you change the way you see it and see it as another day. Is there anyone you could talk to about this? Someone who could support you and be there with you today? Xxx
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