Hi
I would never advocate the use of illegal drugs as a solution. Although Freud prescribed his depressed patients cocaine, I'm certain long term this didn't help!
Everyone likes to go out and cut loose once in a while. some people drink some take drugs (arguably both drugs, just one's legal) Can I ask though does your MH condition mean that taking MDMA could be dangerous, other than in the normal way?? Also does it have any contra-indications with the meds you are on?
Other than that everything is a balance that comes down to that individual. " I go and get really drunk with my friends because it makes me feel good for a week or two" Everyone draws their own lines and makes their own decisions as to what they need to make them happy, weighed against the consequences. What are your consequences is the question here?? And do you understand the drug you are taking?? Illegal drugs have no respect for your body so if you do take them you have to make sure you look after yourseif e.g hydration, not mixing with alcohol, getting food, vitamins from fruit juices, safe environments and people etc etc
I hope that you just find a better path to take. But as I sense that perhaps you may find yourself in this position again, I hope you investigate the things i've mentioned. But please don't get yourself in too much of a state about it all. MDMA can change thought patterns negitively if you feel negitively about it when you take it. I would hate for it to go badly for you because of this and you to end up worse off.
I hope this has helped
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