I think about suicide and or self harm multiple times a day. When I do not have anything else to occupy my mind these is were it goes. I can be reading a book or watching a movie but SH is still in the back of my mind reminding me they are in my mind.
I can not decide if they are dangerous to have or if they are safe. I am afraid that one day, something will happen that will bring up these thoughts in my mind and make them to long for me to resist. I do not think that the thoughts will ever become an addiction. I am not sure so I would like to ask others who suffer from SH if it really turns into an addiction or if a person can control the urges/thoughts?
When I first tried to SH I tried to cut. This form really did not give me what I was looking for. I have been thinking about burning myself. I have heard that this is a lot more painful then cutting and leaves worse scars. this might be what I try next. Thanks for you opinion
