Congratulations on resisting and your recovery. Don't lose sight of that accomplishment.
The urges do subside, right? I feel like if you've had recovery you have probably experienced the calm after the storm of urges.
I can tell you're frustrated by the cat's marks. That would be very frustrating for me. Every time something happens that's like what I used to do to SH (a cut or burn) it's one of the worst triggers ever. At least you can recognize that and you're still staying strong. You are obviously in control, good for you.
I'm glad you came for support. You're doing the right thing by resisting and posting and seeking support and comfort. Hopefully you're doing better and the urge continues to disappear as your cat's marks fade.
*hug*
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