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stumpy · 30-06-2013, 04:32 AM

I've been so depressed recently & feeling very suicidal, I couldn't seem to shift it. When a friend I hadn't seen for a long while turned up at my place with the offer of a share of MDMA I took the opportunity, I've felt great since then, but worried that it's only gonna be a very short term fix, I'm loving heeling happy just for a few days, but I don't want the feeling to end :(

No medication has ever come close to making me feel as happy and confident as MDMA, and actually after a while antidepressants actually start making me feel worse, I know MDMA isn't a good idea to do in the long term, but it's so scary just thinking about my happiness dieing that it makes me feel like I don't want to stop.

But at least for now I'm happy & calmer than I've been in a long while :)

30-06-2013, 04:32 AM	#1
stumpy Hidden In My Shell I'm the Invisible Person... Join Date: Apr 2010 Location: Wales (UK) I am currently:	So desperately depressed, I took MDMA yesterday triggeringillicit drug use I've been so depressed recently & feeling very suicidal, I couldn't seem to shift it. When a friend I hadn't seen for a long while turned up at my place with the offer of a share of MDMA I took the opportunity, I've felt great since then, but worried that it's only gonna be a very short term fix, I'm loving heeling happy just for a few days, but I don't want the feeling to end :( No medication has ever come close to making me feel as happy and confident as MDMA, and actually after a while antidepressants actually start making me feel worse, I know MDMA isn't a good idea to do in the long term, but it's so scary just thinking about my happiness dieing that it makes me feel like I don't want to stop. But at least for now I'm happy & calmer than I've been in a long while :)