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Returned
it is with a heavy heart that I am returned to this place.
things are getting bad for me again and there's is nowhere else to turn, no friends to call upon,no one to notice my decline. not that there ever was.
there is so much to explain, reasons why, events that have happened, all of which have lead me to this point, right here, right now.
maybe I am tired and should sleep. let darkness take me and with the new light new hope. but do I want this hope? it is dangerous this hope, to me, can I in good conscious allow myself to come into possession of such a thing as dangerous as this to me..... I don't know. but it will happen anyway, and will hurt all the more for knowing I could have and should have done something about it....
I know I speak in riddles and half truths, and suggestions but to write all that is on my mind would take more hours than I have available to me.
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