Thanks so much both for your replies and also for the hugs x
LavaLamp, I washed the cuts, I think they're better with the air getting to them so I left them uncovered.
I think the only thing that will help with the memories is time and distraction. I've never spoken about them properly to anyone before and although this thread helped a little, it was upsetting to write. I wish I could just let the past just float away and still have made me stronger but not have it's hold on me...
Sorry for moaning, I know so many people have had it worse!
Thank you both so much for not blaming me, I know I was out of order at the time but I needed to hear that that doesn't make me a bad person. Thank you x
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