First up, I know nothing about you at all apart from this post. I'm not condoning drug use (I've had my troubles with various substances) but if this is a one off and its not going to happen again for a long time then don't beat yourself up about it. Again i'm not condoning it, but I know from experience that occasionally some people need to escape for a bit and for some it is not possible without 'drugs'.
Sounds like a difficult time with your son and that is a pretty exceptional circumstance. As long as you are not doing coke every time something minor happens and its not a constant crutch for you then like I said, don't dwell on it and do our best to make sure it don't happen again soon, if at all.
My mrs of five years finished with me this time last year, I went on an insane binge with my mate, who's mrs left him the same day, for about ten days straight. I spent a months wages in this time and had to sell loads of recording equipment cheap to keep up with all my payments and money I owed.
I'm not going to pretend I understand how you must feel with your son, but just hang in there. I hope things get better for you.
Take care
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