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I did coke tonight :(
Yes.
I don't come to this forum often but tonight I spent money on coke because I had to be numb. I don't do it regularly. I haven't done it in months but my son hasn't spoken to me in 7 months because I told him I was gay. I've been hiding it from him for 6 years and I thought he should know the truth. I guess I was wrong.
Thing is, tomorrow, I will have to ask to borrow money from my family and I feel extremely guilty. I got through the night due to being numb but now I have to face the consequences.
I feel so much guilt right now. I don't use drugs but I have done coke before and I knew it would get me through the night. it has worn off now and I feel a horrible depression.
I don't know what I'm asking for. maybe I just needed to be honest with someone, and it was you guys..
Loves.
xxxxxx
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