Thanks everyone for your honest opinions (even though I asked for lies haha). I kina figured it "counted", and deep down I know that it shouldn't really matter because it was just a little slip up and doesn't mean I'm stopping recovery... but yeah, like DontLookUp said, it's the addiction talking. I have this little voice that says "what's the point in trying? You already hurt yourself, might as well take this chance to enjoy it for a while". Meanwhile, an even smaller voice keeps trying to yell through some logic to me that I'm still working my butt off trying to overcome this, and slipping up is a part of the process...
I have my counseling appointment tonight, so I'm hoping I can get a lot of these pent up feelings off my chest for a while.
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