I wonder if there is a way you could ask for help to build more healthy relationships in your life so you feel less reliant on professional support. It can feel so difficult to need/want the support and care of professionals so you don't feel lonely or unwanted, I can really relate to that and think it's brave of you to admit to us. I certainly don't judge you.
People often use the term 'attention-seeking' to be a negative or shameful thing, but really it's something we all (well or unwell) do quite often. It's just some of us feel able to do it in a healthy or productive way and others feel quite bad about themselves and feel the need to get care in maybe not such a healthy way by lying or exaggerating. I also think a lot of people could relate to exaggerating their difficulties from time to time so you're not alone there.
Could you tell your worker that you feel unheard when you're talking about your difficulties? It may be that she is interested, but that you interpret it differently. She might also be able to help you learn to care about yourself, which is one of the nicest ways to be cared for.
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