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i'm tired
i wish i didn't have to think anymore.
i'm tired of scaring myself with my thoughts
i'm tired of feeling so bad
i'm tired of the constant sick feeling in my stomach
i'm tired of being reduced to tears
i'm tired of the pain of breathing
i'm tired of the weight of my body everytime i move
i'm tired of pretending to my roommate that this time is just like all the rest
i'm tired
i'm tired of my paranoia - thinking everyone hates me
i'm tired of hating myself
i'm tired of thinking that one day i will be happy
i'm tired of living with the knowledge that my happiness is always followed by depression
i'm tired of trying to walk the tightrope between my highs and my lows
i'm tired of falling off the tightrope
i'm tired of failure
i'm tired of failure being followed by more failure
i'm tired of the disappointment in other peoples eyes
i wish i just didn't exist anymore. a button pressed and everything turned off. no end because there wasn't a start.
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