I can definitely relate to a lot of what you've said. The way you've articulated the way thoughts change with depression is really spot on, I think. It can hit harder when you're used to being a happy, outgoing, optimistic person... It feels like you've lost yourself.
I've noticed A LOT of people struggle with feelings that they don't have anything to be sad about, or that their issues are insignificant, or that they don't deserve help... But this is one of the great lies that depression feeds us. Some advice that I found helpful, and that can be applied just as usefully when you're feeling well: don't compare yourself to others. There will always be someone worse off and someone better off... But we're each fighting our own battles.
Welcome to RYL; we're always here for you to turn to on the bad days (& the good ones!). Take care xx
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