[.ghost.]

I always have 2 blades right next to my skin, then another 1 with me in a pocket, plus another 3 in my bag, so that means I have 6 with me nearly all the time, and I always have the first 2 I mentioned with me.

Kind of worrying when I look at the numbers...when my parents first found out about my SI, they took everything away from me, so I'm too scared not to have them with me now, I'm a little over-protective of them really. I'm planning to wean myself off carrying them somehow though as I'm stopping SI.

I've never exactly been caught by anyone, but sometimes I've dropped them, accdiently got them out my pocket when getting keys or something and had to just try and get it away asap. People someitmes notice the edge of one or something like that though, and I'm not sure whether they realise what it was or not.

Sometimes I like having them with me because I get one out and just play with it (I hold it and passs it from hadn to hand kind of tihng) as it makes me feel better and it normally means I don't SI afterwards, whereas I used to wait until I got home to my supply and SI.