I think I would say I feel "more together" now. It's interesting, I was watching a TV program last nite with my partner & there was a storyline about a teenager whose mum died. Her mum had always let her down but then just when It looked like they were going to make it up, the mum got ill. I kept telling myself not to get upset, it's only a TV program but then I did. I am trying not to hide if i'm upset so I did cry in front of my partner. She knew I was going to do it anyway as she knew the storyline would be triggering. I think when I cry like that for someone else, it's almost like really I am doing it for myself (even if what makes me cry isn't the same as my story). Somehow I am sure it helps if you do cry.
we are now away for the weekend so although I am at times mindful of things, a change of scenery is good. Thanku for asking and for your kind words.
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