[Tessar]

Ever since I can remember I've bitten the inside of my mouth every day. Quite often I do it so much that it is really sore & I get ulcers. It bleeds too.
I try really hard not to do anything to msyself when I get angry as I have done other things in the past. Because I struggle to contain my anger, I grit my teeth really hard. Last week I managed to break a filling so it had to be re-done. That did come as a bit of a shock so I have tried really hard the last few days not to do either of these things.
I'm finding it pretty difficult to resist if I'm honest. I just wasnt sure whether doing something like in your mouth actually counts as injuring yourself deliberately?
I know in the scheme of things its nothing really but i would like to stop. Sometimes i find myself doing it & I havent even realised. perhaps its just a habit that needs addressing.
Quite regularly I visualise doing things far worse than this to myself but have always resisted. at times in the past I have inflicted injuries on myself but when my partner found out, i promised not to. i havent gone back on my promised.
I know its not very helpful to think about these things & have been honest all the way though my counselling about these thoughts i have so my counsellor knows it all goes quite deep. what's making it worse at the moment i feel is that i am now addressing what i need to change for the future. i've been here before when i did therapy & I know what's coming. i guess its that time while you're trying to change that is difficult. so i suppose trying to stop myself doing what has become a method of comfort & distration is extra difficult when i am also trying to change other stuff at the same time.
i think i'm rambling now. but wonder if anyone has any useful input for me? i always feel crap on the day i see my counsellor so perhaps today is just one of those days......