[nickcloward]

My name is Nick I am turning 17 in April and I had been with my girl friend (Kristin) for nearly 8 months. She has dumped me twice before for things I had never actually done but she has always come back to me. But about a week ago she dumped me and told me I would never have a chance ever again. I have been so depressed and it only got worse. Two days after she dumped me I went through her messages on facebook and she was sending naked pictures to some guy and telling him she wanted to have rough sex with him. I was so crushed. I told her that it wasn't right that she was doing that right after we had just broken up and that she should stop but she did the exact opposite and went and flirted and sexted more guys. I was so broken at this point, but I thought well if shes going to do it then I cant talk to who ever I want. I started talking to my past ex Brooke and Brooke started sending me naked pictures. I immediately stopped talking to her because I knew it was wrong. I later got the chance to hang out with Kristin and she told me she still loves me and that we could possibly get back together, I was so happy. But she then went through my phone and found the pictures, she got really mad at me and I wasn't sure what to do and I ended up lying to her face and told her that I had no clue where they were from. She later found out that I was lying and told me that she never wants to get back with me ever. I was so broken I cannot live without her. She kept flirting with guys and some were my friends and they would tell me how she says she wants to have sex with them. I knew there was no hope and I cut up my wrist, I carved "10-2-12 K+N" and "No One Cares" into my wrist. I went to her house later that day showed her my scars and told her goodbye forever and that I was going home to kill myself and I wasn't surprised that she didn't care and didn't believe me. So I drove home crying my eyes out and once I got home I tied a rope around my neck and to the balcony above the stairs going to the basement and I jumped. At first it tugs on me hard and it felt as if my eyes were going to pop out, my whole face filled with blood and my vision began to blur. But then the rope loosened and I fell to the floor very much alive. At that moment I didn't know what to think. No one knows that I tried killing myself until now. I need help I need to get Kristin back, I have tried everything I can't live without her and I can definitely not move on. Please help me!