[Sketchy]

I have been told to contact and stay in contact with crisis. I did. I reached out. It was very hard for me to do and I have always tried to avoid them and try to cope with these feelings alone. The past couple of weeks have been a nightmare and I have been overdosing and dealing with suicidal feelings, but uncertainty and confusion at the same time.
I spoke to someone from crisis who doesn't really know me and something was said that I feel was untrue, unprofessional and completely invalidated the distress I'm going through. I've spoke about it in R&V because I'm too scared to go into detail here in case they find out. I'm feeling a bit paranoid at the moment.

I didn't think it was possible to feel even worse, and I feel like I can't or shouldn't reach out for help. I'm not ok. I don't know what I'm asking here. I guess I would like to know how to cope with this and any advice as to what I can do.