What is it about the BPD diagnosis that you hate? It seems that there is something there that makes you hate the label, rather than living with it and trying to move past it. At the end of the day, a label is a label and not a definition. It's something you have, not something you are. It might be that you don't agree with your psychiatrist and that's fair enough, tell her, but don't get hung up on it. These labels are supposed to exist to help your recovery and to progress you in that, not work the other way, so perhaps you could look at the bigger picture and use this to get past whatever you're feeling and use the psychiatrist's help to do that.
Being labelled with BPD doesn't change who you are. It doesn't mean you know yourself any better or any worse, it's just a label for diagnostic and medical purposes, rather than your own. You can still be whoever you want to be.
As a random aside, although I understand all this, I am reluctant to be diagnosed with BPD which is hanging above my head as a diagnosis, I just haven't seen anyone who could diagnose me officially. I do get where you're coming from, I really do, even if your situation is different to mine, and I am trying to teach myself the train of thought that I described above.
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