Thank you Jenna. :)
I am taking steps every day. Even when it feels awkward. But at least I'm trying. Things like sitting waiting in the launderette and chatting randomly with people is something I would NEVER have done before! And I'm doing a heck of a lot more trusting - even things like having my own internet set up in my name etc, allowing maintenance man around, all those things, are huge steps out of paranoid central for me.
Just, I have no 'intimate' relationships. I relate more with people now, form connections, and am making a tentative connection with my neighbour, and lasting bonds really with the folks in writing group and my colleagues at work.
Your experience definitely gives me hope. :)
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