well i must be a veteran +++ as im nearly 50! makes no difference, age. i first SH at aged 10 or 11, then again in my 20's, then stopped til last year. and now... i struggle daily. its a coping mechanism that. unfortunately, works perfectly in the short term. but the viscious cycle it brings is so hard to control. have you tried cbt? or some other talking therapy? i know for me, its the bottling things up, that make me SH as eventually i just must let the 'pressure' out somehow.
take care and stay strong. if you can, ride out the SH feelings, as it will peak then not be so strong so the need for you to hurt yourself will get less. distract, even if for the next ten minutes at a time. (sometimes all i can do is 2 mins at a time) its so hard, but you have got this far, and are stronger than you think.
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