Well i got home from the psychiatric hospital wednesday night, but things have been going down hill from then. I told my psychiatrist there that i had no interest in recovery, and the next day he discharged me. i feel like he thought i was just a lost cause, and wasnt even worth saving. Now all i want to do is cut, i threw away my blade that i had snuck into the hospital, but im starting to feel like its the worst decision ive ever made. i cant stand the urges anymore, all i want to do is cut, it makes me feel alive, it takes the focus off the **** that ive been going through. i cant deal with this anymore. i need it.
