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Steel Maiden · 05-02-2013, 10:08 AM

Thanks Nikki. I will try hard.

I've had anger problems throughout my life. I've been expelled from school twice and suspended twice due to violence towards staff and pupils during meltdowns. I try really hard to control myself, but when I reach meltdown point, all I see is red, and I lose control.

An example is one of my suspension incidents. I was forced to play netball in secondary school, despite the fact that I could not cope with team sports. I was put in a really bad attack position. I had the ball into the game and there were three girls surrounding me, standing really close to me, waving their hands over me, blocking me. I started to hyperventilate and get really panicky because they were invading my personal space. One girl accidentally touched my face (I cannot cope with people touching my face AT ALL) and that pushed me over the top. I started screaming and I started punching and attacking the girl. I couldn't control myself. I was screaming and crying. I whacked her over the head and she fell down. I gave her a nosebleed. I realised what I had done and I ran out of the school onto a road and nearly got ran over. I ran onto the green and curled up on the ground, rocking back and forth, trying to calm down.

I ended up suspended for two weeks. I was 12 at the time, 4 years before I was diagnosed with Asperger's.

This is one of many, many meltdowns I've had. I've been taken under the Mental Capacity Act by the police a few times for meltdowns I've had at home and in public. I've assaulted my Mum four times.

I really need to learn how to control this, but I don't know how. It feels like a seizure, no control, total automatism.

05-02-2013, 10:08 AM	#5
Steel Maiden There is no place like 127.0.0.1 Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: London	Thanks Nikki. I will try hard. I've had anger problems throughout my life. I've been expelled from school twice and suspended twice due to violence towards staff and pupils during meltdowns. I try really hard to control myself, but when I reach meltdown point, all I see is red, and I lose control. An example is one of my suspension incidents. I was forced to play netball in secondary school, despite the fact that I could not cope with team sports. I was put in a really bad attack position. I had the ball into the game and there were three girls surrounding me, standing really close to me, waving their hands over me, blocking me. I started to hyperventilate and get really panicky because they were invading my personal space. One girl accidentally touched my face (I cannot cope with people touching my face AT ALL) and that pushed me over the top. I started screaming and I started punching and attacking the girl. I couldn't control myself. I was screaming and crying. I whacked her over the head and she fell down. I gave her a nosebleed. I realised what I had done and I ran out of the school onto a road and nearly got ran over. I ran onto the green and curled up on the ground, rocking back and forth, trying to calm down. I ended up suspended for two weeks. I was 12 at the time, 4 years before I was diagnosed with Asperger's. This is one of many, many meltdowns I've had. I've been taken under the Mental Capacity Act by the police a few times for meltdowns I've had at home and in public. I've assaulted my Mum four times. I really need to learn how to control this, but I don't know how. It feels like a seizure, no control, total automatism.
	PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10 or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student. I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out. I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included. Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.