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Recovery.
I'm pondering some stuff and I'd really appreciate any thoughts/opinions.
Is recovery possible when you've been really sick for a really long time? If so, how?
I know there is no simple one answer but as far as I can tell I've been sick since I was about 7 and I know nothing else. I've spent a lot of time in hospitals and been in mental health services for 7 years now. Almost everyone in my life has mental health problems and/or self harms. All I talk and think about is mental health.
I feel like I know how to stop self harming, changing the behaviour is posssible, and I know how to 'get' a 'normal' life (e.g. boyfriend, friends, job, out of services) but I don't know how to actually feel better and think differently. I've never really had any proper therapy so I suppose that's something that would presumably help with changing those things? The depression, panic, dissociation and PTSD are all totally ingrained in me.
When your entire life and indentity is centred around being sick, how to you begin fundamental change? How is it even possible? I so badly want full recovery, whatever that is.
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