I know the feeling completely... even when my cuts turn into scars that bugs me. I actually explained it to my counselor last session as: "it's like you drew a beautiful picture that has deep meaning to you, it tells a story that's close to your heart... then that picture you put all this time and effort into just faded away. Disappeared. As if it never existed. As if that story had no meaning or point."
Each time you feel the longing for it, try focusing on the positive instead. Write it down if you have to! List every POSITIVE reason for not having those marks anymore. Being able to wear short sleeved shirts, go to the pool/beach, not having to come up with excuses to people who ask, etc.
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