Hi Ally,
Lovely yo see you sweet but sorry you're struggling. This is going to be a bit short I am afraid as I am in desperate need of going off to bed.
I found this really interesting to read because recently, I've been going through a similar thing of noticing an increase in myself of 'OCD-traits', but in a different manner to you as mine has been an increase in things like hand washing.
I suppose you may not need to treat it as another disorder or label, but instead some behaviours that are indicating you are stressed. I often think of these things as ways to try and control anxiety so I expect you may be having an increase of anxiety - both in the notion of another label, or because your psychiatrist is away.
Is there anything else you can do to try and do ease your anxiety?
There's some good advice around here about OCD, particularly from PassedExpectations about Exposure Response Prevention (mentioned
here). It might be worth giving it a google and seeing if you can try and do things to reduce your anxiety after exposing yourself to something 'triggering' (ie. cupboard door open) but reduce it in a healthy way, like deep breaths for instance and see how that goes.
I do think it is an anxiety issue so worth discussing with your support staff that you feel comfortable opening up with.
However, I don't think it means you're going backwards or even that it needs to get more severe for you either so I am really glad you've made this thread to reach out for help, and I congratulate you on how well you're coming in recovery from SI and ED.
Much love to you.
Aimee xx