Okay, so if he's changed back and it's all fine we don't need to talk to him anymore do we, you don't need to cut over him. The world is fine.
& Yes, I have no doubt I will get PR and in trouble for my posts, and yes, I probably do look like a complete cow but enough is enough. Sometimes people need a wake up call - take this as your wake up call Ashlee.
You need to live your life for you. You need to get yourself some support from AN ADULT, or a service that can provide the support you need. I very much doubt that a teenage boy is going to be able to be enough for you to recover from an eating disorder and self harm - if it worked like that we wouldn't have services in place. Stop obsessing, rumination, overthinking and wallowing - get on with your life and get help so that you can move forwards. You are going to lead a very, very sad and lonely life if you continue to behave in the way that you are. You need to speak to an adult that can provide you with the support you need, because this forum/Shaun will not be enough. More than anything you have to be willing to take a step in the right direction by speaking to someone. It would seem to me that if you've had an eating disorder since you were a child people are already aware that you find some things difficult, so it isn't going to be a massive shock to them. People care about you and want the best for you - stop throwing it back in their faces and talk to someone, get yourself some support, get yourself sorted and go and live a healthy and happy life.
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