[Bellatrix]

I've had anorexia or anorexia-purging subtype for a while. I have abused laxatives. They do NOT help you lose weight. You will become dehydrated from water loss, but there will be no weight loss at all.

You will also lose the ability to control your toilet habits. You will pass fecal matter involuntarily and become more incontinent. You will lose the ability to produce proper stools, and may require surgery that involves having a bag for your poo that you have to carry around.

Scaring you is harsh, yes, but I hope we have.
Do not go down this road. There are no positives at all. It ruins lives.
Get help now.