I'm really sorry to hear about your loss.
I agree with the above - the CAB is a good port of call.
It's quite normal to want to blame yourself... often in death there is no one to blame, and that is a frightening thing, so in a way it becomes easier to blame yourself to have at least something to direct your anger to.
Maybe make yourself a memory box and fill it with pictures and notes and make a scrap book, so you can remind yourself of all the nice things you did together - which will be the important things she would remember.
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