Hi Jenna
I can completely empathise with what you are experiencing because I am currently experiencing very similar. I've just opened this thread and literally gone: "Bananas in Pyjamas, someone else is experiencing this." It's particularly interesting what you have said about TV programmes because if I miss something my brain considers 'vital' (which is completely interchangeable) from a TV programme I have to then re-watch it on a plus one channel an hour later or BBC iPlayer etc at the expense of whatever else is happening/I might like to do.
I am feeling quite low currently and so for me I think that's what has triggered it off. It is not something I struggle with when I feel more 'well' in myself. If I do things 'correctly' or 'perfectly' maybe I won't feel so low is sort of how my thought process goes. It can be very invasive though can't it? As well as disruptive. I've even been berating myself this week for not turning my mobile off 'properly!' I mean how does one even turn off a 'phone properly? So then I have to turn it back on and go through the whole process again.
I think Leclaire's advice is sound and what I have been trying to do incidentally. I am deliberately trying to do things in a more relaxed way and forcing myself not to redo them, mainly by employing distractions and going and doing something else. This also helps me challenge the notion that I am a failure and thus things will fall apart if I don't, which is my worry.
I am sorry you are currently struggling with this and feeling so stressed by it. I really hope it eases up soon and you feel less controlled by it. Can I offer you some *hugs* too?
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