oh hunni...I am saying prayers right for you! But NOT that God will take you. I used to ask God to not let me wake up but I don't do this anymore.
What happened to you in 06 happened to me as a child by my father. When I was an adult and confronted my mother about it(because she knew what had happened and did nothing to stop it) she told me the exact same thing your Mom told you.
I have a great relationship with my mother now but I'm 35 and it took years. I think our Moms just don't know how to deal with what happened to their little girls. They want to push it away or go into denial. I think my mother loved me so much that she simply couldn't deal with what had happened. Maybe that's the same reason with your Mom?
As far as therapy is concerned. Can you change therapists since it seems this one isn't right for you. I don't understand why she would cut back your appts. when you are going through so much. I would think they should be increased.
I'm sorry about your house. Sandy was terrible. I live in TN so I wasn't affected by it but I know people who were. I hope your parents can start to agree more and get things together, maybe then you will feel more secure.
Also, you don't have to be suicidal to get into inpatient. I admitted myself once because my cutting was out of control and that's what I told them. I was admitted the same day.
I will be praying for you.
much love.
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