i started on the toops of my legs then moved onto the tops of my arms and now tend to cut the bottoms of my arms and wrists. At first I felt like I had to hide the scars and cuts but now I dont care who sees them. Its what makes me I suppose. I dont wear long sleeved tops all the time now. Ive even started going swimming which means the scars on my arms and legs are exposed.
Although now I have lost my son as my ex (his dad) has got custody of him, to get him back I have to play it right and not cut but thats going to be impossible so I have had to resort back to cutting on my legs and stomach so that he doesnt find out.
I love seeing the scars on my arms - I am proud of them - sad and sick I know but its true. Although some days I wish they would disappear but they have been so deep they will be there for life.
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