It sounds like things are really bad right now, with your ED and mood stuffs. The ED hasn't ruined you forever. It sounds like you're having trouble taking care of yourself right now. Are you eating and drinking enough? If you aren't getting the bare minimum number of calories your body needs to function then your body and brain will start to shut down. This isn't irreparable.
The first step is to take care of your body, physically. This means food, or calories, at least enough to function. Then, the rest of it; energy to shower, and take care of yourself, will start to fall into place. When you've got enough energy to function you will find your brain function comes back too.
I know it's not easy, and I know it's a lot easier for me to sit here at the other end of a computer screen, but food it one of the most basic things we need to function.
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