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Steel Maiden · 29-12-2012, 02:01 PM

I am struggling with voices, paranoia, Spies and problems with organising my thoughts these days. Somehow I have to study for an important mid-year pharmacology exam that will take place at the beginning of the term in January. I really cannot focus. Also my OCD is interfering too. And I find I am shutting down / going nonverbal more often (I have autism) due to stress.

I need to do well in this exam. I got 50% in the pharmacokinetics test last term, which is a diabolical mark and I am embarrassed to even say the percentage.

I have a tested IQ of 160, I don't feel that my performance is justifying my intelligence.

How do I study with all of this mental illness my brain is putting me through?

I cannot study with any type of music. I use the noise of the dual carriageway near my street to help block out the voices, but it is not entirely effective (my windows are always slightly open). I cannot keep my thoughts focussed, even typing this post is hard. I've been awake for seven hours but I've done more OCD actions than studying.

This morning I nearly had a screaming fit (due to autism I am prone to aggressive / violent outbursts) and I almost smashed something.

I am not on sufficient antipsychotic medication (I need high doses for efficacy) but my psychiatrist is on holiday until the 4th of January.

I am not sure what to do. Suggestions?

29-12-2012, 02:01 PM	#1
Steel Maiden There is no place like 127.0.0.1 Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: London	My psychotic symptoms and studying. I am struggling with voices, paranoia, Spies and problems with organising my thoughts these days. Somehow I have to study for an important mid-year pharmacology exam that will take place at the beginning of the term in January. I really cannot focus. Also my OCD is interfering too. And I find I am shutting down / going nonverbal more often (I have autism) due to stress. I need to do well in this exam. I got 50% in the pharmacokinetics test last term, which is a diabolical mark and I am embarrassed to even say the percentage. I have a tested IQ of 160, I don't feel that my performance is justifying my intelligence. How do I study with all of this mental illness my brain is putting me through? I cannot study with any type of music. I use the noise of the dual carriageway near my street to help block out the voices, but it is not entirely effective (my windows are always slightly open). I cannot keep my thoughts focussed, even typing this post is hard. I've been awake for seven hours but I've done more OCD actions than studying. This morning I nearly had a screaming fit (due to autism I am prone to aggressive / violent outbursts) and I almost smashed something. I am not on sufficient antipsychotic medication (I need high doses for efficacy) but my psychiatrist is on holiday until the 4th of January. I am not sure what to do. Suggestions?
	PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10 or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student. I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out. I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included. Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.