[love.hate]

Hello my name is Samantha and i'm 18. I'm not really sure if i'm posting in the right bit but oh well.

I have been not quite right and have been SHing since i was about 13, nothing really bad has happened in my life except what most people go through like family deaths or a mentally abusive boyfriend to make me like this so I think there's just a problem with me.

I keep thinking i'm getting better and just end up straight back to the urges and sitting here doing nothing feeling like crap. I just feel so stupid because most of the time there is no reason for this. I just want to know if it ever does get better or will I always be like this even if it's not constantly?

Thanks, i've been feeling quite alone lately :|