Thank-you, I really appreciate it. I am trying really hard not to be too negative, I think I sound more negative online because I'm trying to be extra positive at home (especially since we don't know anything for sure yet) but then all those worries are there and it just helps to write them and acknowledge them a bit.
We do try to get my brother to tidy up sometimes, but I am not holding out much hope haha. I love him to pieces but it is the one thing that drives me mad about him.
My dad tried to bring it up a bit today. He's starting seeing someone recently, and he said she wants to be there for him and that she wants to support me as well. I haven't met her yet though, and I'm not sure how I feel about it. But if it helps him to know that I'm ok and that she can talk to me then I guess I'll get used to that.
I have done some more research today, but it's difficult until a) it's confirmed and b) they know more. He's got a choice of two hospitals apparently (I think both in London). I know surgery is the preferred option, and then radiotherapy. Apparently chemotherapy doesn't help much with eye cancer, so I suppose one positive is that he won't have to go through the horrible chemo. I just have no idea how it works really - like, if they can do surgery then...maybe it's just *gone*, just like that (with the follow-up checks of course). So maybe within a few weeks it will all be ok again. Or maybe they'll do radiotherapy also. Just got to wait and find out I guess. I know they do everything they can to save sight, but if they have to they will remove the eye, and if it comes to that it will obviously be a lot of adapting for him, and probably for us too. But we just don't know yet, that is jumping far too far ahead again.