Hey.
I saw the HTT twice today as they were really worried that I was going to OD again but as it was at the cmht they spoke to the HTT consultant who is overseeing my case and decided to start me on quetiapine (but its strange as yesterday they said my bloods were still really bad). I can't take the quetiapine as it will make me sleepy and I don't have time to sleep. It will also make me put on weight and become so fat which I'm pretty much already. But mainly because it will fiddle with my thoughts and change everything. I'm already confused with what's my thoughts and what's the voices and what's the 'it' people who control my thoughts thoughts. So taking something else will be so confusing.
I rang the crisis team and it was an idiot who picked up (just my luck) and he just said go to sleep. I tried to explain I couldn't sleep because there's too much to do he proceeded to not understand and say listen to relaxing music to make you sleep. He also said I was being no compliant with them as I won't take the quetiapine but that's because of the voices and that I can't fall asleep as I have soo much to do. When I was only on 50mg like a million weeks ago before the od I slept for like 12 hours straight and they stopped it because of my live but now 300 is going to zonk me out when I have to take care if everything. Need to arrange lots of protests and petition of recycling and protection of the earth. He also said that he would talk to someone and call back. That was at 1:15 it's now 3:14. So he's a bit crap. I told him I don't know where I am and I'm confused who I am and he said okay. How do you want me to help?
I don't know who to talk to? My boyfriend is too distressed to listen to all of this at the moment and my best friend is asleep now so very confused. :/. Sorry
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