hi Lauren, welcome to ryl :)
i can empathize with not wanting to have people worry about me... i guess what it took me a long time to realize is that while i wasn't telling them anything, they were still really worried because they could see that i wasn't really ok... sometimes knowing something is wrong but not what it is, and imagining, is actually worse than just knowing the truth.
i kept things from my family for a long time, and what my mom said when she found out, even though it made her very worried, was that she wished i'd told her sooner so that she could have done her job as a parent to help me. but i didn't give her the option to do that...
i'm so glad that your mom is ok now, but that doesn't take away all the fear you experienced and everything that you and your family went through. do you have anyone who is not so immediately involved that you could talk to? talking to a counselor at school might be really helpful. they might have to talk to your parents, but they definitely shouldn't tell your teachers at school any more than the bare minimum that they need to know (like if you are allowed to leave class or something).
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